volkswagen

via melissa chandon

jacob has been working very hard on his volkswagen.

its going to be ours,

volksy.

we are going to travel in it and maybe leave the ceremony in it and be totally rad hippies in it.

its funny because in high school, he wouldn't let me sit in it because he was afraid i would get dirty.

haha, how far we've come.

dress

i went to my first fitting yesterday. the dress was lovely, she put a veil on me, my friends were very supportive.

i just feel out of place.

how strange.

that this is the dress that i have thought about so long and that i'll wear to start a new life with a man i love.

at every important moment in my life the experience has been very hard to absorb because all the ideas and perceptions and thoughts i had about it overshadow the moment and its so surreal that i can't absorb anything.

i want it to be fresh and new and i want to feel it like it is, not my expectations of how it should be.

most importantly

i don't want to wake up in june and be like what the heck just went down?

bittersweet

last month a friend of a friend told us about a chocolate shop where she got a good study vibe. i was reticent. a chocolate shop? but its on fillmore and i pass it on the bus and it has good hours and wifi. three points for it. the need for a study vibe came today and so april, bekah and i traversed to bittersweet.

she was right. two floors of tables, outlets, mellow music and to die for chocolate and coffee drinks. i'm sold.

village market

while in the inner richmond this morning,

after staying over with a friend,

i returned to the village market.

i found it last december and loved that they offered

blue bottle coffee.

i was able to stay at their large wooden table in the front and enjoy a coffee and croissant today.

the sun has come out and the mixture of people mingling has been very refreshing. they offer organic produce, interesting products and a coffee bar. as well as free wifi.

brilliant.

audrey

I need to see this movie, audrey tatou is perfect in amelie yet seems to capture coco chanel brilliantly. how could i have not heard of it before? the things you learn when you're sick.

typewriter

i had a fever today and i was not at home. i was very sad.

but nothing makes me feel better than a note from jacob. especially when its typewritten on our typewriter.

perfect timing.

we're going to use it at our wedding for the guestbook.

we'll to have to have someone man it though because its a bit confusing. love it.

happy weekend!

school

I have been in school for the past 19 years of my life.

19 years.

before that i sucked my thumb and rode around with my dad to properties.

really its 20 if you count preschool.

i've always excelled.

{except at math, of which we don't speak}

love reading.

good at relationships with professors and peers. i know how to work the system and i know how to critically think.

getting an actual job and making my own schedule?????

that i don't know how to do.

what is that going to look like? reading books i like because i want too. working at a job because i like it, volunteering or both.

i don't know what that means as a full time occupation.

am i allowed to do what i want? surely not.

i have been given every opportunity. if i don't succeed its only because of my own laziness or failure.

that's a scary thought.

on to craig's list!