summer

its finally here. now what am i going to do with myself.

well the list of to do's is very long. but for fun one's i have

reading
there's so many book lists around. i've already read jellicoe road. very juvenile but a good story
violin playing, hopefully
bike riding, once volksy gets here
and
cooking/dinner parties with friends

as well as thank you notes,
job hunting
and name changing
i enjoyed relaxing but i prefer being a busy girl

we're back

dinner at stellina's

point reyes is our new favorite yet i am so glad to be home.

here's to hoping the summer will be filled with as much love and laughter and incredible people as the last week has.
thank you

wedding time

its almost here! we've taken care of all the details, just a few more things to consider. and get everyone where they need to be. i am praying we don't get blown off the cliff. it could happen. i can't wait to post pictures and stories later this week.

weekend

kimberly and i grew up together since we were born a day apart in the same hospital. our friendship has grown no matter how far away we are. her visit this week has been so good and i've enjoyed exploring the city with her. some highlights have been ritual coffee's fifth birthday party where we listened to music, enjoyed free coffee and people watched extensively

also experiencing bay to breakers,

in n out,

and people's park in berkeley.

one week

until i am a married woman.

craziness.

there is so much to do yet so much has already been done.

i've checked the 10 day forecast and its supposed to be sunny

so here's to hoping.

i'm going to buy ribbon and some other odds and ends today and jacob comes tomorrow for reals.

i can't wait to get started!

holga

i got one for my birthday,

because i have the best fiancee ever.

the film came yesterday,

{and due to some of that birthday/wedding partying, i just put it in today.}

i'm so nervous.

it was difficult to load and i'm afraid i already exposed some of the film. but that's kinda the point though,

they are not supposed to look perfect.

hopefully i'll be loading some film pictures on here soon.

birthday love

breakfast

+

rebekah

+

brother phone conversation

+

just the right amount of studying

+

packages

+

friend conversations and messages

+

kimberly

+

dinner

+

cake

+

promise of partying

=

a truly wonderful birthday

birthday question

what has it taken me 24 years to learn?

this birthday question is asked at every birthday by my friend emily. i always think about it when birthdays come around.

yet, this is a hard question for me.

i feel i never fully learn something just maybe a new side to an old revelation or a new way to apply it to my life. i seem to struggle with the same things alot.

but i think the thing i've learned most fully this year, and one that i've worked on for a while,

is the fruitlessness of comparison.

that who i am is good enough.

and that by comparing and giving into jealousy

i'm the one who loses.

that i have been given important gifts that i must learn to utilize and that fit a certain purpose and place.

i tried to more actively work against that lately. i really haven't looked at that wedding blog anymore and i try to see the humanity in people whose coolness i feel "threatens" mine.

we all have something to learn and gain from each other but that's not possible if i'm always trying to win.

it's not about me.

i hope i take this lesson into the next how ever many years.

civil wars

new favorite band, the civil wars, are wonderfully folksy, honest and their prosaic harmonies lift your heart.

i love these silhouette frames as well

Tasting

i tried the food we will be having at our reception today at Poggio's with a dear friend.

it was delicious.

the salad was hands down my favorite. now that's saying something. it has strawberries and goat cheese and spinach and a hazelnut vinagrette.

it has me very excited.

we had a lovely time discussing wedding stuff and everyone's busy schedules.

i am really looking forward to the day.

its crazy how fast and yet how slow time moves.

weekend

this was a big weekend

i presented my graduate capstone, relief, but more to go

my dad arrived and we planned the wedding

{aka ate donuts and saw iron man 2}

he left today,sad, and so i bought some lipstick.

i've been wanting bright

red

for some time and

thought it'd be fun to try for a little pick me up,

all this pressure is getting to me a bit,

but i'm afraid instead i bought

purpley-pink,

not quite the sexy look i was attempting, oops. there are reasons why i don't buy drugstore cosmetics.

i swear that's not what it looked like in the tube.

the search continues.

by myself

living alone for the first time has proved very interesting.

its lonely but freeing.

i don't like not using my voice all day

but when i'm not here i sometimes feel crowded and just want my quiet little space again.

i have learned that i'm pretty good at entertaining myself

and that i'm pretty good at distracting myself.

i've also learned that i'm still very dependent on those around me.

i just have to be more intentional to talk and share

harder than it seems sometimes

i've also learned what true hospitality is from lovely friends

and hope i've shown it in my little studio

while i'm so excited to have jacob in the studio and not be alone so much, i'm racking my brain to think of things that i'll miss when i'm not by myself all the time.

i haven't been too successful.

i think that's a good thing.

blue cheese

while i know that its false

to believe that things will settle down

after i get married

i do have a list that i'm excited to get started on

books to read,

things to cook and

i think i'm a bit obsessed with blue cheese.

so far i have

a tomato blue cheese soup and

blue cheese biscuits

on my list.

this is what keeps me writing

the little things right?

speak slowly

this is my new mantra for my presentation.

i seem to believe that people can read my mind and therefore my speaking is merely supplementary.

this {unbelievably} is false.

so i must speak slowly and enunciate my important points.

speak slowly....speak slowly.....speak slowly

i can do this.

we're almost done

productivity

script:one week

paper:two weeks

graduation:three weeks

wedding: 22 days

yet how do i define productivity today?

talking to my best friend

cleaning out 1/2 my dresser to make room for jacob

editing my script {kind of} and reading it out loud

eating a delicious fried egg salad that i made

and enjoying some sunshine

take that three weeks

i will be ready