Wednesday, May 12, 2010

birthday question

what has it taken me 24 years to learn?

this birthday question is asked at every birthday by my friend emily. i always think about it when birthdays come around.
yet, this is a hard question for me.
i feel i never fully learn something just maybe a new side to an old revelation or a new way to apply it to my life. i seem to struggle with the same things alot.

but i think the thing i've learned most fully this year, and one that i've worked on for a while,
is the fruitlessness of comparison.
that who i am is good enough.
and that by comparing and giving into jealousy
i'm the one who loses.
that i have been given important gifts that i must learn to utilize and that fit a certain purpose and place.
i tried to more actively work against that lately. i really haven't looked at that wedding blog anymore and i try to see the humanity in people whose coolness i feel "threatens" mine.
we all have something to learn and gain from each other but that's not possible if i'm always trying to win.

it's not about me.

i hope i take this lesson into the next how ever many years.





2 comments:

  1. love this post. and it makes me so happy to hear you talk about yourself like this because there is not a single person that could even be similar to you in any way, you are so special to everyone who knows you. just ask around :)

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  2. I love this. Thank you for sharing. You speak so honestly and are so genuine about how you have grown. I am glad to know you. : )

    p.s. cannot wait to PARTY it up tonight.

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