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i took a break from looking at blogs as they were beginning to overwhelm my thoughts, time and creativity. i want to focus on the things that add not detract from my spiritual, and emotional life. i want to at least know where i spend my time and this was a very beneficial fast in that area. though as i reenter the world of blogs in a limited way i can't help but remember my love for ill seen and ill said. her ability to pinpoint thoughts and emotions meets me in a very specific way. i love this post and its recognition of the sometimes uneasy place of finding where you belong and being happy with the choices you've made. while i've found my loved one i often feel uneasy about where we'll end up. this poem sums that up pretty well.

Places, Loved Ones
No, I have never found
The place where I could say
This is my proper ground,
Here I shall stay;
Nor met that special one
Who has an instant claim
On everything I own
Down to my name;

To find such seems to prove
You want no choice in where
To build, or whom to love;
You ask them to bear
You off irrevocably,
So that it's not your fault
Should the down turn dreary,
The girl a dolt.

Yet, having missed them, you're
Bound, none the less, to act
As if what you settled for
Mashed you, in fact;
And wiser to keep away
From thinking you still might trace
Uncalled-for to this day
Your person, your place.

philip larkin