deadlines

confession:

i need pressure.

not too much pressure but enough to make me realize the seriousness of the situation.

i perform best right after doing poorly.

i need to be reminded to work hard.

this is apparent in my job in the area of bedmaking- after my boss commented i recognized that indeed stuffing in the sheet is not enough and researched hospital corners.

yet now i do it without thinking.

another example is ironing.

i did not believe i doing a good job but not until my boss mentioned that i could use improvement did i research how to iron online and watch videos.

i'm still practicing and i know i will master the art of ironing, as the boss calls it.

i strive for excellence but also know how to just get by.

in the area of my capstone it means that i do a lot of reading and then think about what i'm going to write for some period of time,

weeks maybe.....

and then write just before the deadline or atleast before i have to talk to the professors.

i worry this means that i am undisciplined and not self motivated.

if i get the work done does that count?

any opinions or tips?

how do yall work best?