i went to my first fitting yesterday. the dress was lovely, she put a veil on me, my friends were very supportive.
i just feel out of place.
that this is the dress that i have thought about so long and that i'll wear to start a new life with a man i love.
at every important moment in my life the experience has been very hard to absorb because all the ideas and perceptions and thoughts i had about it overshadow the moment and its so surreal that i can't absorb anything.
i want it to be fresh and new and i want to feel it like it is, not my expectations of how it should be.
i don't want to wake up in june and be like what the heck just went down?